Sept. 25 2006, Feeling beat up today

Or maybe it should be "beat down".

Yesterday I awoke with a pretty harsh headache and It has stayed with me now in varying intensity levels up till now... I expect i will have it when I try to go to bed tonight and I would not be surprised if I wake up with it in the morning again.

I have been thinking all day about how useless I feel, always tired... always in pain... always under-motivated.

I don't know if this is the start of a ramp up to a new cycle of intense short "knock you on your ass" attacks, but even if its not I am so tired of hurting and feeling guilty for hurting.